HIJRAH

2013

I got myself into university life again.

Seeking for knowledge. 

Pursuing masters in applied statistics.

Just confirming my sponsorship for the university fees.

Alhamdulillah.

Semoga Allah redha.

2014

Will move in to a new house.

Somewhere closer to workplace.

Really hope the toll and fuel cut-off will compensate the doubled rent

New surrounding,

New housemates,

New landlord,

And hopefully I can develop a new routine too

I do need a fresh start for 2014

December 2013 has been so stressful

of people, of money, of everything

Semoga Allah redha..

so wake me up when it is all over

I tried carrying the weight of the world

But I only have two hands

Hope I get the chance to travel the world

But I don't have any plans

Wish that I could stay forever this young

Not afraid to close my eyes

Life's a game made for everyone

And love is the prize

-a song by avicii-

fasobrun jameel....

KESABARANKU TERUJI LAGI

ASTAGHFIRULLAH...

ASTAGHFIRULLAH

LA ILAHA ILLALLAH

LA ILAHA ILLA ANTA SUBHANAKA INNI KUNTU MINAZZOLIMIN

Port Dickson

my body, is start to acting weird again.
i feel sleepy, but i cant sleep.
so i watch drama instead.
so i often wake up late.
and feel really tired the first thing in the morning.
so i guess i need a relaxing weekend gateway
and PD it is
it was fun but not so relaxing
and I'm totally okay with that

meet friends of a friend
it feels good to meet new people once in a while
nice food, nice game, nice breeze...
we laughed our ass off like there's no tomorrow
and getting back home with back pain.
and sun-burn face
and one unforgettable memoir
that is all that matters the most.

Because we are young, we deserve to feel free and happy.

Just To Ring Some Bells

**shared from somewhere, not mine..

Jika tiada rezeki anak,

mungkin diberikan rezeki mertua yang baik.

Maka kita lebih bahagia dari mendapat anak

yang liar. 

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Jika tiada rezeki wang ringgit,

mungkin diberikan rezeki kesihatan.

Maka kita lebih bahagia dari kerisauan menjaga

harta dunia.

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Jika tiada rezeki kereta mewah,

mungkin diberikan rezeki kenderaan yang jarang

menimbulkan masalah.

Maka kita lebih bahagia dari membayar

kerosakan yang mahal.

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Jika tiada rezeki rumah yang besar,

mungkin diberikan rezeki makanan yang tidak

pernah putus.

Maka kita lebih bahagia dari si gelandangan.

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Jika tiada rezeki pasangan yang cantik,

mungkin diberikan pasangan yang baik

dan pandai menguruskan rumahtangga.

Maka kita lebih bahagia kerana hidup berteman

dan terjaga segala.

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Jika tiada rezeki jodoh,

mungkin diberikan rezeki umur ibu bapa yang

panjang.

Maka kita lebih bahagia dapat berbakti

sepenuhnya pada orang tua.

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Jika tiada rezeki hari ini, mungkin ada rezeki

yang lebih baik pada esok hari.

Maka kita lebih bahagia kerana rezeki yang tidak

dijangka.

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Bersabar. Bersyukur. Berusaha. Berdoa.

Bertawakal.

Hanya Dia, Allah Yang Maha Adil

Harapan Kehidupan

Sepertinya saya gembira dengan situasi itu.
Tapi, seketika kemuadian, saya sedar saya belum bersedia untuk itu semua.
Naluri itu memang ada
Jauh di sudut hati mahu turut merasai indahnya berada di daerah itu
Tapi itu hanya bermakna saya mementingkan diri sendiri
Masih terlalu banyak ruang kosong yang perlu diisi-penuhkan
Masih terlalu dalam dasar yang pelu diselam
Andai hidup hanya untuk gembira bahagia semata
Tiada masa lalu yang boleh dijadikan sempadan pengajaran
Kesimpulannya, saya akan isi ruang-ruang kosong itu semua,
Saya mesti belajar menyelam, untuk sampai ke dasar itu
Biar tak laju, baby steps is good enough though
Asal maju.

Hasil nukilan,
Saya Yang Tak Buzy.

Krik Krik Krik

My Little Secret

I had a crush on this one guy.

Nice figure, soft spoken, tall and not so fair-skinned.

I'll portray him as this, but with tanner skin. 

But, he's married.

With 3 kids, and 1 wife, of course.

Hopeless, I know.

Till then, bye.

Let's go find another crush.

Or maybe just be grateful with what u already have now.

Bye.

XOXO

ALHAMDULILLAH

KEGEMBIRAAN

DAN KE-BERDEBAR-AN

UiTM,

Thank you for considering my application

Thank you for having me as one of your people

Even though I still have no idea what future holds for me

I'll try my very best to be the brightest star there.

InsyaAllah, with everyone's doa.

Aishah, let's do this together, like old times!!

ALHAMDULILLAH.

poyo gile! buat part time coursework je kot, tah laku tah tidak nanti....

RAMADHAN

Assalamualaikum.
Ramadhan lagi. Alhamdulillah, masih diberikan kesempatan untuk menjani ibadah puasa dalam keadaan yg sihat dan sejahtera. Namun begitu, tetap ada dugaan emosi ketika berpuasa. Satu persatu dugaan yg boleh mendatangkan umpatan! Letih jika dilayan.

But anyway....
This is the view from Broga Hill, captured few days before Ramadhan.
Cantik kan?

Subhanallah! Breathtakingly beautiful.

next: Chilling waterfall.

babai!

Senyum sahaja, cause we are cool like that, and cuter too.

RANDOM

Eat healthy food, u'll be fine.

Personal Rant

It's been a while since my last post. Work had been a little crazy and I really do not know how to cope with everything. My favorite boss had left (for a better life), test failure here and there, entertaining other's requests and then hated by the techs, and bla bla blaaaa.......On a brighter side, I had submitted my application form to further my study, and now waiting for the result. But then again, work's piling up, and I got headache already. I am really not sure how to cope with the study soon.Not really a bright side I guess. The timing is suck. I feel stupid.

Life updates:

1. Mom's coming over this weekend, yeay. 
2. Aunt's going to umrah together with his son, hopefully bringing home his son in a new form soon.
3. I want a Morrocan Rose perfume, but had no money left. Boo!
4. Going to Langkawi with sister this end of month. Yeay!
5. I said I'll be fine with my RM 99 Samsung phone, but actually I am totally not. 
6. I've stopped using Retin-A  due to MALAS. Will start again when the skin condition is bad.
7. Not replying much to his text recently. I want him to get his job first. Yes, honestly.
8. I really should start saving some money for my road tax renewal.
9. I'm holding my pee now. Yucks, I know, but I am way too lazy to go throw it out.
10. Prospective boyfriends: yes, I have few boys in my mind. Gediks, I know.
11. Looking for Hafiz Hamidun's Zikir Terapi. It's one of my Ramadhan's preparations.
12. nk g kencing!

Screw Me!

          Yesterday, he asked me a question. 'THE' question. And the answer to that is just a YES or a NO. And me being the usual me, giving a firm answer to a YES/NO question is not really my bright side. I got goosebumps all over. And worst, i did not give myself some time to think it over, and simply answered him. And he took it as a NO.
         
          I should be calm by now, but no. I don't know why I got this funny feeling inside me. My answer could have been a YES too, and he couldn't see that. Thanks to me. Perhaps, my answer was valid just for who willingly want to  wait, and he obviously did not want to. Well, that is it. The damage had been done.

          Dear you, maybe we're not destined to be together. You'll surely find the right one for you soon enough, and please pray for me too, to get a guy who is as good and gentleman like you.

*yet, maybe i wanted to deliver a YES message, and he thought I said NO. (yeah, that is probably the answer to those funny feelings inside me)

babai peeps.

being silly

I really did not know if it was just me, or hormones, or whatever..I often got offended with whatever she said. It was so bad, that I almost cried. I knew it was not healthy, but i just can't help it.

value

why can't everyone be just a little supportive? aku ni memang xde value kan kat mate korang? thanks for being so honest all this while, and a very big fat thanks too for helping me all this while.tanpa korang aku mmg xleh hidup kan? fine, be that way. afterall, aku mmg x bergune pon kan..xmampu nk tolong korang ape2..

bye.

T_T

REZEKI

Now it is only two months that I got my car, and I feel devastated already. That monthly commitment was not a joke. Of course, a lot of planning and studying had been done prior to decision making, but still...huhu, you know, the theory and actual things did not always get along..There were gaps, and those gaps, really make me wanna cry..Okay, I should stop whining  it is all about rezeki, betulkan niat, believe in ALLAH, ikhlas dalam amalan, and remember, rezeki is always there..

WHAT TO DO BILA PERUT MASUK ANGIN, AND IT IS 1 MORE HOUR TO GO BEFORE LUNCH. T__T

GOSSIP GIRL MADNESS

     

     Those who are close to me will know how crazy I am towards Gossip Girl series. I had been following those episodes since my first year in degree, and now, it is finally coming to an end. Remember last time when I was blabbering about me subscribing a website to download English TV series? I ended up using that only two to three times only..yeah, blame it on the slowest-on-earth-in-the-ruralest-area-in-the-entire-existence-grrrrr internet connection. I could download all the episodes in season 4 (or maybe i had missed one or two episodes) just by using the Celcom Broadband which I only pay RM 50 monthly in my hometown during my 'honeymoon' period, and the one that i am using now costs me  RM 68 per month, only allowed me to get just 3 episodes of GG!! Bad, right..

     But anyway, who cares about that anymore. I already had my hands on the full episodes of season 6, and I'm gonna watch them all the soonest I can, and no, I will not make any review, since I will  lost  my words in the process. I had a lot of thoughts and words scatterly-arranged in my head, and too bad, most of the time, they were just trapped there. And later, they were all gone, untraceable. I'm sick. Oh Em Jiee....So can I say that I am a thinker, rather than a blog-writer  I guessed it is so. Disagree much? Who on earth would care. After all, I'm in charge here.

*My 2013 resolution is to keep my money saved regularly. Wajib ade monthly saving. Sebab nk kawen. Dengan siapa? Don't you ever dare to ask. Because I'm in charge, and that is the rule. And another rule is, jangan berani2 tanya saya dah saving berape banyak.