2016

Wow
2 posts in 2015
and the first post for 2016 is in mid July
What a _____ blog owner (u fill in the blank yourself)

But hey,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf zahir dan batin

So whats new?
been missing for almost a year, there must be a lot to share
I finished my masters on March
Convocation is expected on November

So next, I am getting married in September
Hopefully everything went well

There's a lot to say about me getting married
But I cant express it with words
It is so stressful and overwhelming and confusing I cant even...

Lets just pray that Allah will ease everything for us..

Tata!

MOVING FORWARD

Helloo..long hiatus, I know. So this is my fifth semester with my masters. It was supposed to be a 4 semesters program, but i dragged it to 5 since my sedar-diri-ness with my perangai pemalas..hehe
So, all the course works are done, and now i only left with the dissertation. Anyhow, I am now doubting my capability to complete the project. I lose my focus right now, and I can't seem to menghadap my writing. This has happened like everyday. I opened my thesis draft on a daily basis, but I ended up staring at it blankly, and later, I saved  and closed. The changes might be only one or two dots among the paragraphs.Bad girl this one. I cannot even suggest what is the suitable remedy for this level of laziness of mine.

Relationship-wise, we are now one step ahead, Alhamdulillah. The engagement ceremony will be held in 2 weeks time. Well honestly, this might be the explanation why can't I focus on my study. I asked for his opinion, is it OK if I quit, and he said, why not. It is ok for him if I dropped it if I cant seem to find solutions to my problem. And amazingly, Nadiah said the same thing too. Keep my priority clear, and  focus one thing at a time. (and many others said NOOOO, dont ever quit!!!!) Honestly, I think my whole focus had shifted from study to relationship, the moment we decided to get engaged. Previously, my decision to pursue with my master, is because I wanted to keep myself busy over the weekends and keep myself occupied in the office too. Little did I know, I was easily swept away when he proposed. I didn't blame him though, Allah knows how blessed and grateful I am with this relationship. He's a very supportive guy, support me in every decision I made. It is me that maybe, a little too excited with this relationship, and that in a way may have ruined my focus.

So..enough with the rants and whines. All i need right now is just a peace of mind, and feel recharged again before i start over with the whole thing. Wish me luck buddies...

Love,
N.

LIFE

so my last post was in August 2014
the third semester workload is no joke

i decided to continue writing today
because my stress level is above daily average
i know, its not good
but we are human
we are allowed to to have feelings right

why things are not going the way we want them to be
why bosses are so annoying
why is that some person treated people differently
does seniority matters? because i think that is a total shit
why do people gain weight easily?
what makes it so damn hard to lose a pound
what makes it so hard for me to be hardworking?
why good friends live miles apart
why parents are so kindhearted and makes a daughters cries when she misses them
why dads are so cool and sacrifice everything they had to make their family happy
why moms are so funny and make daughters miss them so badly
why next week seems so far away
why sweet things in life are so complicated

well..this is life..

as fragile as a glass

For god's sake,
I just suggested a pizza topping
And i got 'kuat makan lah ko ni' at my face

I hate you.

Excuse me, i am emotionally unstable at the moment

AIDILFITRI2014

Salam aidilfitri to everyone
Minal aidil wal faizin
Taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum
Taqabbal ya karim

The raya celebration is nothing but the usual rituals
Bangun pagi2
Berebut2 bilik air
Berkemas2 apa yg patut

Owh, but this year,
One of the cousins decided to celebrate raya with us
This is their second raya without the daddy
Our beloved ayah chik *alfatihah*
They requested my mom's nasi dagang
And this raya morning is filled with so many kids, that'rare. Hehe
Good food, good people, good weather on this holy day
Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal

There is one different thing about this year's raya
Its not that im getting engaged or married or whataoever
Its just something that i wont forget.
I'd love to keep this raya memoir for the rest of my life

Its awkward, but i am happy
Things seemed to be working out well, for now.
Lets keep praying for more good things to happen
InshaAllah.

krik krik krik kinda post

The company's network will no longer allow us to open blogspot page
This is seriously dissapointing
But anyway, it is good
So that i wont be browsing through people's blog all day anymore -_-'

Another young engineer is leaving
He's been such an eye candy for these past two months
It is quite dissapointing when i heard it
But he must have his reason
So that is it
I must learn to let it go
It was never right to begin with

So, there is nothing much happening these days
It is now almost the time for my second semester final examination
The workload is so overwhelming
But still, i got my sweet time complaining in here
What a lazy person i am

Two more weeks for Ramadhan
Mashaallah cant wait for the month of countless blessings
Allahumma ballighna ramadhan

FLEXIBILITY

As usual, we were chatting.
Talked about this and that.
And then i'm saying something
About me being flexible
With almost anything
I just can go with the flow

And he asked about being flexible with him
Can i still can go with the flow?
And with all my heart
I said "i replied your text, that's a sign of me going with the flow. Slowly."

Then he said,
"Simpan dalam hati, kunci rapat2"

I said: slow2 la, tengah cari kunci.
He said: the key is with me. Penuhkan dulu, nanti saya bagi kunci.


There are fireworks inside my heart