Helloo..long hiatus, I know. So this is my fifth semester with my masters. It was supposed to be a 4 semesters program, but i dragged it to 5 since my sedar-diri-ness with my perangai pemalas..hehe
So, all the course works are done, and now i only left with the dissertation. Anyhow, I am now doubting my capability to complete the project. I lose my focus right now, and I can't seem to menghadap my writing. This has happened like everyday. I opened my thesis draft on a daily basis, but I ended up staring at it blankly, and later, I saved and closed. The changes might be only one or two dots among the paragraphs.Bad girl this one. I cannot even suggest what is the suitable remedy for this level of laziness of mine.
Relationship-wise, we are now one step ahead, Alhamdulillah. The engagement ceremony will be held in 2 weeks time. Well honestly, this might be the explanation why can't I focus on my study. I asked for his opinion, is it OK if I quit, and he said, why not. It is ok for him if I dropped it if I cant seem to find solutions to my problem. And amazingly, Nadiah said the same thing too. Keep my priority clear, and focus one thing at a time. (and many others said NOOOO, dont ever quit!!!!) Honestly, I think my whole focus had shifted from study to relationship, the moment we decided to get engaged. Previously, my decision to pursue with my master, is because I wanted to keep myself busy over the weekends and keep myself occupied in the office too. Little did I know, I was easily swept away when he proposed. I didn't blame him though, Allah knows how blessed and grateful I am with this relationship. He's a very supportive guy, support me in every decision I made. It is me that maybe, a little too excited with this relationship, and that in a way may have ruined my focus.
So..enough with the rants and whines. All i need right now is just a peace of mind, and feel recharged again before i start over with the whole thing. Wish me luck buddies...
Love,
N.
