MOVING FORWARD

Helloo..long hiatus, I know. So this is my fifth semester with my masters. It was supposed to be a 4 semesters program, but i dragged it to 5 since my sedar-diri-ness with my perangai pemalas..hehe
So, all the course works are done, and now i only left with the dissertation. Anyhow, I am now doubting my capability to complete the project. I lose my focus right now, and I can't seem to menghadap my writing. This has happened like everyday. I opened my thesis draft on a daily basis, but I ended up staring at it blankly, and later, I saved  and closed. The changes might be only one or two dots among the paragraphs.Bad girl this one. I cannot even suggest what is the suitable remedy for this level of laziness of mine.

Relationship-wise, we are now one step ahead, Alhamdulillah. The engagement ceremony will be held in 2 weeks time. Well honestly, this might be the explanation why can't I focus on my study. I asked for his opinion, is it OK if I quit, and he said, why not. It is ok for him if I dropped it if I cant seem to find solutions to my problem. And amazingly, Nadiah said the same thing too. Keep my priority clear, and  focus one thing at a time. (and many others said NOOOO, dont ever quit!!!!) Honestly, I think my whole focus had shifted from study to relationship, the moment we decided to get engaged. Previously, my decision to pursue with my master, is because I wanted to keep myself busy over the weekends and keep myself occupied in the office too. Little did I know, I was easily swept away when he proposed. I didn't blame him though, Allah knows how blessed and grateful I am with this relationship. He's a very supportive guy, support me in every decision I made. It is me that maybe, a little too excited with this relationship, and that in a way may have ruined my focus.

So..enough with the rants and whines. All i need right now is just a peace of mind, and feel recharged again before i start over with the whole thing. Wish me luck buddies...

Love,
N.

LIFE

so my last post was in August 2014
the third semester workload is no joke

i decided to continue writing today
because my stress level is above daily average
i know, its not good
but we are human
we are allowed to to have feelings right

why things are not going the way we want them to be
why bosses are so annoying
why is that some person treated people differently
does seniority matters? because i think that is a total shit
why do people gain weight easily?
what makes it so damn hard to lose a pound
what makes it so hard for me to be hardworking?
why good friends live miles apart
why parents are so kindhearted and makes a daughters cries when she misses them
why dads are so cool and sacrifice everything they had to make their family happy
why moms are so funny and make daughters miss them so badly
why next week seems so far away
why sweet things in life are so complicated

well..this is life..